Last week I celebrated another birthday. It was my 71st.  Like many my age, I wish that birthdays didn’t arrive so quickly, but I’m grateful to still be around to celebrate mine. 










Four years ago, my life almost ended in the emergency room of a hospital in Brasil. I had suffered severe arrhythmia due to an episode of tachycardia. My pulse climbed to 300 beats per minute.  Since then, thanks to beta blockers, diuretics, a pacemaker and good doctors I am still on planet earth eating my share of pizza and pasta….


But, that’s not to say I haven’t questioned many times why I inherited a deficient heart from my father’s DNA


Do you ever find yourself asking any of the same questions that have ricocheted around in my head?

Why Me God?

  1. Why did I have to have this problem?
  2. Why me, of all people?
  3. What did I do to deserve this?
  4. Will this never end?
  5. Did my sincere friends not have enough faith in God to cure me?
  6. God, don’t you care?
  7. Do you not hear my prayers for relief God?
  8. After all, I’ve sacrificed and done to serve You this doesn’t seem fair!
  9. What’s the point of all this, anyway?

Some of the early responses satisfy for a while.

  • You need to slow down a little.
  • It keeps you from being so self-sufficient, too self-reliant.
  • You need to learn to rest more.
  • it helps you to see and hear others around you who are suffering.

The agonizing reality is that the positives don’t seem to outweigh the negatives

In my case, I can no longer run, much less walk up steep inclines, I readily experience shortness of breath and tire much easier than before. In short, my quality of life has been drastically reduced. And the why me questions still pop into my head more frequently than I like to admit.


Recently, His still small Voice speak words of enlightenment into my soul:

  • What if I allowed you this physical suffering so that you could enter into the fellowship of My sufferings?
  • What if this is my way of bringing you more in line with the image of my Son?   
  • What if I want you to truly learn that when you are weak then you are strong? 

Paul says it like this in Romans 8

That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.  God knew what he was doing from the very beginning. He decided from the outset to shape the lives of those who love him along the same lines as the life of his Son. The Son stands first in the line of humanity he restored. We see the original and intended shape of our lives there in him. After God made that decision of what his children should be like, he followed it up by calling people by name. After he called them by name, he set them on a solid basis with himself. And then, after getting them established, he stayed with them to the end, gloriously completing what he had begun. Romans 8.28-30 MSG.

Why not ask God to speak into your soul right now amidst whatever why’s you are facing!


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